I have so many things on my mind right now I don’t even know where to start. It’s like I’m thinking about a million things at the same time, and as soon as a new thought comes up the other one disappears, and I don’t even get to finish them lol.

I’m thinking about the future, the past, money, success, ambitions, work and everything in between. I’m literally so bad with my thoughts, I have no control over them what so ever, I’m basically just winging my way through my mind trying to keep up. It all spins so fast I’m getting dizzy.

I also got only two hours of sleep today which doesn’t help at all, it feels like I’m basically brain dead, and I need to leave for work in one hour so I don’t really have time to get any more rest. I’m probably just going to get myself a huge cup of coffee and hope I’ll survive the night. Ugh, I wish my doc would prescribe me some sleeping pills I could take on days like these. I feel like my life would improve greatly if I could only sleep properly. But he won’t, that lil bitch. And I have no idea why, he only tells me that it’s not a solution, which I obviously already know, but goddamn it would really be a lifesaver at times when I’ve slept badly for several days.

Imagine a life where you sleep 8 hours a night. What a fucking dream that would be.