Hi, my name is Fiona and I am an alcoholic.

I’ve known about it for several years but I don’t think I ever accepted it until now. Maybe I still haven’t. I believe the main reason I haven’t been able to stop drinking is because I don’t want to. I love alcohol. I love how it makes me feel. Like I’m the happiest girl in the world. Invincible. But when the drinking goes from a few times a week to every single day, from the moment you wake up until the moment you pass out in the evening, it starts getting less and less fun. When you only drink to get normal. Not drunk. Not to have fun. Just to keep you afloat.

I haven’t touched a drink in 3 days now. I would love to. But I won’t. For me. For my life, and for my future. I will use this blog as a virtual diary, and to hold myself accountable not just for me, but to everyone else. And I hereby swear to be completely honest about my journey, about the ups & downs, every win and every failure.